Oh my goodness! It just hit me!
In our Thursday night community group we recently started Experiencing God, which I am excited about. God has used this study mightily in Jason's and my life in the past, and I began it looking forward to what He wants me to learn this time around. However, I have not been outstanding with abiding lately and found myself over a week behind in my workbook with group meeting tonight!!! (Now, I'm not a follower of the law, and usually choose to look at my behavior in light of grace. But, I do know that to hear from God requires spending time with Him, and right now that workbook is my accountability.) So, in I delved.
Almost caught up I had to get to work. So, I put the last day and half on hold until this evening. Still I closed my book only to keep revisiting the truths in my thoughts. So much to meditate on and pray through. I am not surprised that I find each word in the workbook so applicable to my life right now, but sometimes I am still slow to really GET it!
So, I'm sitting here at work (I work in the living room and Jason in the bonus room.) when Jason gets a phone call. It was one of those calls that just leaves you unable to concentrate on what you should be doing and really praying for wisdom as you are rocked to the core (and that was just from hearing Jason's half of the conversation). Anyway, back to "work" it just hit me. One reality that I just read in Experiencing God is that following God often leads you to a crisis of belief. That's where we are today -- a crisis of belief. Now why should I be surprised that God would take head knowledge of what I read and require it to become tested and tried in my life?
Now for the crisis of belief. Here is what I know, believe, and what I am staking my banner on. God is faithful, trustworthy, always at work, loving, merciful, our provider, our protector, and all-knowing. This information that we just found out is not new to God, and He foresaw our involvement in it long before it came to be or before the phone call today. It is brought to us for such a time and this, and He who called us is faithful and He will do it (1 Thess. 5:24). So, I choose to join Him in His work.
